Mike's First Year

I was thinking of posting this when Mike goes IFT, but on his blog. But I'll post it here as well.

I wish I could just capture him–
His long coat, the thick baggy skin.
All the wrinkles under his chin.
How his face crumples up when he smells something.
The way he mopes around with big heaving sighs,
And snores when he lays his neck across my foot.
The way he tries to hide,
When he's doing something I don't like.
All the sarcastic expressions on his face when I talk to him.
The way he looks when he's half asleep.
And the big swirls of fur on his butt.
The way his panting feels like laughter.
And the way he acts like an elephant,
Afraid of a mouse around the vacuum cleaner.
The way he'll push his shoulder in, and rolls over onto you,
Or maybe the way he softly places his chin on your lap,
And licks your hand so gently when he needs attention.
How his lips flap around lazily,
When he looks at you upside-down.
Or how he points his toes when he stretches.
All of these little things make up him,
And I'm scared I'll forget something so important about my sweet baby.
I never want to forget the feeling of his velvety nose and chin,
Buried warmly into my neck,
Or how strong he is when I hug his chest,
And hear his heart pounding.
How safe I feel,
Like nothing will ever touch me,
When I snuggle up between his paws.
That face he gives when he is looking for me,
And then when he's found me.
His eyes are so heartbreaking,
When someone is leading him away from me.
I never want to forget these things,
Because maybe I'm the only one who will ever know.
His future mom or dad will know a loyal service dog.
But I know him differently–
I am his mommy, since birth.
I know everything about him,
Head to toe.
And I almost needed him,
As much as he needed me.



Mike, I am so honored and privileged to have been your puppy raiser. I hope you go on for great, beautiful things. Thank you for this year. I will miss you always.

The Poem "Fall"

When strong walls built
    begin to crumble– wilt
When found what one can find
     release tears from their eyes
When that special place they know
     collapsed– dead in water's flow
When vibrant trust had
    shattered in Maker's hand
When those wishes dreamed
    only lasting memories
When body– mind
     life's unkind
When weakness in the heart
     played its part
When no energy is left
     no motivation kept

               Fall.

Eulogy : A Poem

Here is another school assignment - to write a eulogy. I hoped to make it ambiguously meaningful, so try to figure it out before moving on to the "Explained" section... :P

Eulogy

That distant girl, in faded clothes

Marches behind the clouds of the dawn.

Her radiance masked by the dissonance between

Far are we from similarity,

But one we are, she- me, and I- her.

She whispers from the grave

Laid distilled upon the mantle

Captured in modest frames.

We have already met and goodbye.

There is another, she- us, and we- her.

She lies somewhere beyond, unknown, a stranger.

Her back to me, she walks away.

I don't know her, but she knows me.

And as I to the first, she has to me

Said goodbye, and left me be.

R Jazz Biel, ©2011